Surviving the game

If you’ve arrived here via Twitter or a previous edition of this blog, you might have noticed that my journey so far has been a bit bumpy. I know that a career in science, and in particular, a postdoc position, is never exactly easy. There are always hurdles and sometimes walls. I also will acknowledge that some people have good postdoc experiences. However, this one has been… suboptimal, for reasons that I might detail at some point in time.

The thing I’ve realized over the past several months is that science careers are very much like poker. For a while, I stayed at the table. I folded on some hands, called others, but I stayed in the game, even though I was bleeding chips. At some point, I started thinking it might be time to leave the table, but I just wasn’t quite ready “give up”. In other words, I was this guy:

I reached a point where I felt like I was beginning to arrest the outflow, and maybe I was even beginning to win a few rounds. It seemed like progress.

Then it all fell apart again. This time, though, I knew it was time to walk away. I realized that this wasn’t about giving up but about cutting my losses, that it was time I started looking out for my best interests and that staying was not part of it. It was mildly terrifying to effectively give my notice without having something lined up, but for myriad reasons, it was necessary to maintain my sanity.

It turns out the timing was impeccable. Just a couple of weeks after I started looking for a new job, an open postdoc position in my current city was posted on a science jobs site. The focus and approaches of the project aligned beautifully with what I was looking for. There was some peripheral overlap with my graduate work, but there was substantial divergence as well. The long and short of it, the PI liked what he saw, as did I, and I will be joining the lab in a few weeks. I have a seat at another table in another town, so to speak.

I have learned a great deal from the experience, which I will share in future posts. In the meantime, Kenny Rogers and the Muppets can sum up what might be the most important part:

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Who are you, and what are you doing here?

Although I’ve only been on WordPress for a couple of months, I have now been blogging for just over year. So it seems well-timed to pick up DrugMonkey’s call for Why do you keep looking at me? posts. So, even if you don’t comment here normally, as PalMD said, throw me a bone.

  • Who are you people? Non-scientist? Scientist? Student? Fellow disgruntledoc? Figment?
  • How did you find me? And what keeps you coming back?
  • For something completely random, what Disney character have you found most terrifying at some point in your life? (You’re looking at mine… granted I was 3, but Figment freaked me out.)
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A tale of two CVs

For reasons that might be discussed at a later date, I am looking for a new job.

My ultimate career goal has not exactly changed at this point in time, but I am perhaps not so resolutely committed to it as I once was. Nonetheless I am still making decisions on the basis that I’m still heading in the same general direction, even if it takes me longer to get there than I had initially expected.

Here enters the two-body element of the equation. Last fall, Paramed began working toward his Bachelor’s degree in earnest. He has a couple of years left, at which point he will most likely be working toward some sort of graduate or professional degree. This means that I really need to stay in postdoc city for 2 more years—but not (much) longer than that. I want to return to my biochemistry roots, so it’s certainly possible to crank out some publications during that amount of time. But even if I do manage that, it means that I likely will be doing yet another postdoc when we move again.

All these factors—and others not mentioned—have culminated in a decision to be less restrictive in my job search than I was a couple of years ago and to apply for both academic (postdoc) and industry positions.

Which means, among other things, having two versions of my CV.

The first is relatively easy—the traditional CV listing my degrees, fellowships, publications, etc. This is the one that will go out to heads of academic labs, and only needed to be updated from when I previously applied for postdoc positions. The second is a new beast for me—the industry CV. In many ways, it’s an expanded resumé with elements of a CV. I spent several hours this week learning about the industry CV (there are several good articles at Science Careers on the topic) and building my own.

One thing becomes immediately obvious when comparing the academic and industry CVs: Academics care about your pedigree and publications; industry wants to know what you can actually do—as in what methods and programs you actually have experience with. It’s an interesting exercise after spending years focusing on what you got and not so much on how you got there. It’s probably a worthwhile task for any grad student or postdoc, if for no other reason than to assess how much you’ve learned. And as Jeff Habig pointed out, it’s almost essential for young scientists to maintain multiple versions of their CVs these days.

Speaking of, I should get back to mine!

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What you say vs. what I hear

I told you I had more to say.

I suppose it should come as no surprise that power and prestige is associated with white men. The upper echelons—the company executives, department chairs, deans of universities—of most (if not all) fields are populated largely by white men. White men generally earn more money (often significantly more) than their counterparts in any other demographic.

But that doesn’t mitigate my ire at reading statements like this (emphasis mine)—both from articles written by Beryl Lieff Benderly* on the problems with America’s scientific labor supply:

A prime symptom noted by all: a growing aversion of America’s top students — especially the native-born white males who once formed the backbone of the nation’s research and technical community — to enter scientific careers. —  Miller-McCune, “The Real Science Gap”

and similarly

But the demographic that historically provided America’s scientists, native-born white men, is down by about 1,000 a year, although minority (mainly Asian-American) and female PhDs are up markedly. But because white men are traditionally the highest-earning segment of the American population and the group with the widest career options, many observers believe that the decline in their numbers indicates a drop in the desirability of science careers. Scientific American, “Does the U.S. Produce Too Many Scientists?”

I am not here to debate the data—meaning the actual numbers. I also realize that these statements do not necessarily represent Benderly’s personal opinion on the matter;  this is a broader viewpoint that has been applied to other fields over the years. Moreover, I would agree that there are issues in the current system of training, doing, and funding science in the U.S. (we’ll get to that later), which may very well translate to lost interest in scientific careers. But I have a problem with equating fluctuations in the number of white d00ds in a field to career desirability because it conflates disparate issues and propagates a particular mindset in our culture.

Confounding the issue

The first question—which I cannot answer—is why are “many observers” linking demographics with job allure. When I posed a question about this connection,  DrugMonkey commented that “there is the mediating variable of [money]”. In the context of the quote from the Scientific American article, one wonders whether the assertion is based on the demographic or the money. Certainly the two are linked, but this is in part because that demographic still holds the majority of the highest positions; and at most levels, they earn more than their counterparts, in part because they ask for more (and more often).

The next question is why are fewer white males starting careers in science—that is the point of these observers, after all, that entry is down. The number of women enrolling in college has increased dramatically over decades. Women have outstripped men in earning degrees, for quite some time now. So I don’t think it’s a huge leap to expect increased enrollment of women in Ph.D. programs—which wouldn’t occur without a concomitant decrease in male enrollment unless the programs expanded.

Furthermore the assertion does not account for efforts by funding agencies and institutions to enhance diversity in science. These efforts have largely focused on increasing enrollment of women and minorities in Ph.D. programs. If a field is actively working to change its demographic distribution, it hardly seems reasonable to point to that change as evidence that careers in that field are somehow less attractive.

Piercing perceptions

When I read statements like those quoted above, I react with something ranging from mild annoyance to being outright pissed off, depending on my frame of mind. That is because I see within them an implicit message, whether the author or the “observers” (whoever they are) intend to send it or not.

You’ll never be as good as a white guy.

You’re here because he doesn’t want it anymore.

You’re picking up the scraps that he no longer wants.

You’re second rate—always have been, always will be.

You’ll never be as good as a white guy.

Did any of those commentators ever say that? Of course not. At least not for publication. And there’s a (good?) chance they don’t even think it. But the thing is there is still an undercurrent—often subtle, almost imperceptible—that white men maintain supremacy. Here we are in the 21st century, and we’re still using the white male segment of the populace to define success, to construe what we should and should not desire, and to exemplify, by their departure, where the problems lie.

Of course, most white guys out there have no control over their use as a benchmark standard. I don’t hate them for it. I simply detest the oft unspoken implications, the things left unsaid that remain so time and time again. Those are the things that sneak in, that settle down in some dark little corner of the mind, waiting, growing, congregating, and if you don’t find them, you don’t expose them, they can turn into vicious creatures that undermine your confidence and seed doubt. They may be of our own making, but rarely come without at least a little help from society.

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If a white guy isn’t there, why would anyone want it?

A while back I ran across this assertion in an article about the fate of science in the U.S. that bugged me. Basically it cites the fact that fewer white guys are pursuing scientific careers in the U.S. as evidence that careers in science are less attractive than they used to be; it cited similar trends in other fields that have fallen out of favor, so to speak. I think I tweeted about this. Then forgot it…. until I read it in another article today. I will have more to say about it later, I’m sure, but until then, what do you think?

But don’t stop there. Comments are enabled for a reason.

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